dead end

i guess nobody will ever bother to read my journal anymore, but i'll write anyway, at least i write for myself

it's been one and a half year since i wrote my latest journal, and it's been awhile since i write anything on dA, i tell you why.. it's not that i'm not into drawing anymore, well yes my college robbed me of my drawing time pretty much but i still draw sometimes.. it's just my love for dA is depleting..

four years ago, when i first visit dA, i was like "wow! an art community where you can talk everything about drawings, share your knowledge, giving advice, critics, support, etc etc". and that's what happened to me, dA gave me so many friends that support me and give me the drive to keep drawing, keep practicing, being better at drawing.. for that, i thank you my friends, and thank you dA.. without you guys, i probably would've stopped drawing years ago, seriously..

but as time goes by, i watch and watch more people, and so does my dA friends.. then our message box is bloated with tons of deviations, then we don't bother to look at our message box anymore, then we don't know each other's new deviation, then we don't give comments like we used  to, and then our friendship became more and more distant to the point where we don't speak anymore...

the longer you stay here, the more people you watch, the more boring dA will be... you don't actively participate in the community anymore, you become an outsider watching from outside.. it's a dead end